I Wish. . .

Today is Dawson's 2nd birthday. 

My heart aches for so many reasons.

 

I wish he were here with his family.

I wish he were not in an orphanage in China.

I wish his birthday was being acknowledged there.

It is not.

 

I wish our homestudy had not been "lost" in the mail.

I wish SC DSS realized it does not take 10+ days for a letter to get from SC to USCIS in MO.

I wish we were DTC today.

We are not.

 

I wish this stage of the process did not take so.very.long.

It has been 2 months since our HS draft was sent to BAAS.

2 months for an agency approval, a DSS approval, and a USCIS approval.

I wish I had a I 797C in my hand.

I do not.

 

I wish I were holding this little guy and kissing those sweet cheeks.

I wish I could touch his little arm and stump and grieve for the absence of his limbs.

I wish we were celebrating Dawson's 2nd birthday with him today rather than without him.

We are not.

 

I wish that there were no orphans in the world.

I wish I could adopt a dozen more precious children who long to be loved and celebrated.

I wish my heart didn't ache for Dawson and the millions more like him.

But it does.

 

 

Happy Birthday Dawson/ "Jun" - your life will be celebrated today and every year after by your family who loves you!

This is the birthday package we sent - minus the cake.  Not sure when the package will arrive at the orphanage.  Hoping we get some pictures when it does!