Here Dawson is taking a breather from being in the carrier which is really more like an oven! He and I are both soaked after an excursion with him next to me in the carrier, but it is helping my back a lot and is superb for bonding!
I am so thankful and in awe of how well Dawson is doing and how well we are bonding. One might think a mother would instantly love her newly adopted child - afterall she has oohed and ahhed over pictures and thinks she truly loves this child whom she has waited so long to hold. Yet that is not always the case. Praise God, it is the case with Dawson and me. Sadly, it was not the case for 2 other families who met their children in the same room and at the same time as I met Dawson. Two families have returned their children to the orphanages. That breaks my heart and makes me angry all at the same time. I know I am not to judge, yet I can't help but think about the little girls' futures. I simply can not imagine sending the child I have waited and prayed for back to life in an orphange. It is essentially abandoning them again. These 2 girsl, one almost 9 years and one 3 years, spent the night with their parents, ate meals with their parents, and then after 2 nights, they were sent back to their respective orphanages. Two little ones who once again suffered rejection from a mother. Will they be taunted and ridiculed by the other children and the staff at the orphanage? I am afraid so. Oh, dear God, why must there be so much sadness and heartache? I know the answer yet my yearns for it to go away. One day. One day all of this shall pass away. My heart longs for heaven where there will be no more outcasts and no more rejects. No more stares at my precious little boy because he is different than the "perfect child". Lord Jesus, Come! |
Oh gosh Jan I did not know that! That is heartbreaking. As hard as that first day was and as much as I worried about what this would look like once we were home, I really cannot fathom what would make me send my child back to the orphanage; so thankful I am not in their situation. I just cannot not imagine what they must be going through, any of the involved. P.S. I didn't get your email. Try to send another one :)
ReplyDeleteSo thankful to see a post from you this morning. I was worried about you! Glad to see that all is going so well. JW would often remove his pajama pants or shirt during the night. I finally gave up and now most of the time he just sleeps in a pair of cotton shorts. I think he gets hot and is more comfortable this way. Dawson is so cute in every single photo! Love the one of him wearing his sunglasses!
ReplyDeletePraise God for the friends you have found in China! It always broke my heart to see the people...even children...begging on the streets. When we went for John we saw a young lady begging on one of the walkways that crossed over the streets begging. She had her little girl who looked like she was about 3 years old strapped to her back and it was bitterly cold. I cried every time we walked over that bridge. Could have so easily been either of our girls or John.
Can't wait to see you and Dawson in a few days! Praying the TB test is okay!
Hugs!
This happens often, sad to say. So glad you are in it for the long haul. These dear children need their families to advocate for them, to love them in spite of what little they may seem to offer, to help them reach a potential that will never be in their grasp if they're sent back. It's heartbreaking.
ReplyDeleteSo exciting to see him smiling for you. He is so, so special. Please smooch him for me. I have had his pic of us when he was bitty and sleeping on my chest as my FB profile pic since your Gotcha Day, to remind me to pray for you.
The pictures of Dawson sleeping with his shirt around his neck so reminded me of my time in Guangzhou with Jayden. I even posted a picture on my blog of his wardrobe malfunction: http://livingshema.blogspot.com/2011/06/wardrobe-malfunction.html
ReplyDeleteYou will eventually figure out the best clothes for Dawson, but we still often have some malfunctions!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I absolutely love following along.
April